THE LIFE

Thursday, January 1, 2009

The End Gives Birth to A New Beginning

The End is The Beginning of Something New

Blessed Through my Trials gained Progress through my Struggles.

“A lot has been lost in order for more to be gained; though the struggle seems consistent my faith in God shall remain!”21

I understand as a human I was born to do wrong even when I try and do what’s right. I guess it’s apart of being born into a world of sin. I know that the things that I’ve done thus far in my life that caused grief or pain to those who showed care can’t even compare to the pain that I endure today. I feel so much regret for the actions I chose to live by in past that is effecting my present. Today is a gift and I cherish every second I live in it but I still have a pain in my heart that must be removed in order for me to move forward to the blessings God has for my future. I’ve made mistakes and I’ve done things I knew would leave trails up unto my present, but I ignored the obvious to pursue the satisfaction of the moment. The long term effect for living by the rules I created for myself against that created by my Father in Heaven was regret, guilt and self hate which I alone can not remove from my heart. Only Through my prayer of repent for my sins and accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior can remove this burden.

As I dwell on the choices of my past, as I endure the struggles in my present, there are so many things I wish I hadn’t done. For, I do not wish to undo what I’ve done because as I now see it, it’s just a learning experience that one must undergo in order to mature to the next level in life. A baby doesn’t learn to walk straight without stumbling a few times or having help and proper guidance to remain erect in his walk. I’ve stumbled far too long relying on lies and others to keep me from falling. It’s time to let go of everything I’ve become accustomed to and let God replenish my spirit, heart and my walk. I no longer wish to talk about the plans I have or the ways I intend to achieve them, for talk is cheap. I am ready to remain silent, listen to my Father in Heaven and walk without looking back or going astray from His path. The past has many regrets and curses but my future has many blessings waiting to be given through my obedience today. I will consider every trial a blessing and turn each of them into testimonies for others to reference. For, the struggles were indicative to progress through many trials in order to gain success.

I’m ready to become a blessing in another person’s life rather then remain cursed in my own wicked ways. I’ve sought to find a sovereign God who could restore my spirits and emotions so that I could never refer to my past and think of ways I could’ve of lived right in order to hold on to the things I had. Maybe the things I once possessed were never meant to remain because only God knew from the start He was only preparing me for something much better to be gained. For, he who was given a gift from his Father in Heaven took that gift for granted because he didn’t know how to cherish that of what was given. For, if what he once was given wasn’t taken before he could actually learn to cherish it then the next time he is given something he wouldn’t understand the feeling of loss and how to cherish what was given. A lesson unlearned is a lesson repeated. We either learn the first time we are punished from our own mistakes or remain stubborn in our own attempt to learn from them. I must learn to remain patient, perfect my God given proficiencies and remain obedient to Gods decree.

In Jesus name I pray that My Father in Heaven protects me and keeps my walk erect so that I may be able to resist the temptation and live for Him and fulfill the purpose of which He created me for. Success, prosperity and a life lived full of blessings and the desires of my heart shall be gained under your chaperone. For, the toils and struggles in order to receive the blessings shall be gained as you are my leader and Father in Heaven watching over everything I do and guiding me every step of the way. Those who oppose me will respect and look up to me for they have played a major role in being that of what they chose to become and through there indifferent ways assisted me in fostering my success. As the old saying goes sticks and stones my break my bones but words will never hurt me. For, I know that the words they speak are not that of what man speaks it is words delivered through man from the enemy. For, he knows that God is getting ready to take me to the next level in life and bless me with the desires of my heart. My Father in Heaven, protect me in everything that I do and from those who oppose me. I live to serve you and serve to pray for those who don’t fully understand your omniscient ways as I am becoming well aware of. I love you Father God and thank you for my struggles and allowing me to triumph them. You have taught me many lessons in 2008 and in 2009 the blessing you have for me will be mine. In Jesus name I pray

AMEN.

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Success Doesn't Come Easy

(Overcoming the worry in order to conquer the dream)

“Struggles were sustained in pursuit of a dream that defeated many men. For, those who followed through understood Gods promise through Hebrews chapter ten.”

For, he who steps away from that of what he became accustomed to in order to pursue a path less traveled by men shall gain the respect from those who travel the path lead by many because he is different. He harvested a dream that he was not afraid to pursue and he became eminent in the craft of which he perfected through his diligent efforts and toils. For, what was a vision given by God became a dream pursued by man. What became a dream gave life to a journey that would lead him straight to what was envisioned possible of becoming reality by the spirit living within. For, the sight through the flesh alone could not have allowed him to attempt the impossible. Oblivious to the obscurities of the world hindered the blessings that would soon come had he not been lead by faith instead of that of what he had saw before him. For, what he saw would have only been a mirror of what he would have became had he not possessed the faith in his Father in Heaven to allow him to live the dream he dreamed. He prayed for a plan and God made a way. He planted the seed, which was the dream he was given and it was watered by those whom he met along the way. The more people who assisted in their own attempt to harvest his dream God allowed that of which was planted to grow. For this man was not worried about how or when his plant would produce a fruitful harvest because he understood that only God can deliver His promise so long as man does his part as God works behind the scenes. He understood that in order to reap the benefits of his harvest that he would have to remain obedient to the laws that God commanded before him. He goes above and beyond that of what close friends and family believed in and he begins a journey no one knew would soon become possible. For, he alone did not get to where he is going by sight alone. He had his Father in Heaven guide him every step of the way and allowed certain individuals whom he met along the way to achieving his dream foster his success. He went from being an average Joe to become a legend! He had to go through the struggle and overcome the worries, for he knew it was a test so he is giving God the glory. 21

About Me: The passion for music exposed


“Born as a boy then matured to a man. Through my struggles gained progress in pursuing Gods plan.” 21

I am a 21 year old aspiring producer from the DMV area. I enjoy listening to many genres of music with no limitations of the ethnicity behind the sound. Often times in order for me to become motivated in making a new hot track the first 30 seconds of a song must send chills throughout my body in order for me to sample that particular track. I can produce any type of beat but I mostly enjoy sampling old school tracks. I think anyone can do anything if they put their mind to it but it’s the creativity level that allows one to stand out from the rest who pursue the same craft and be an eminent entity. Most people who hear my beats ask me what do I use to make my beats and here is my answer for that. Since I do not have the sufficient funds to purchase the proper studio equipment that most producers use now a days for production I have to use Fruity Loops to record my tracks. It isn’t the best software out there but it isn’t the worst either. Sometimes you have to manage with what you have until you are able to afford what you need to achieve the dream or passion you have. I’ve been doing beats now for 2 years. I started in 2006 and have been pursuing it off and on up until now. I was first inspired to become a producer when I was working at Best Buy in the year of 2006. My good friend Cameron who was also a colleague of mine at the time use to play 9th wonder and J. Dilla instrumentals on the PC’s at work while we assisted customers in selling PCs.

I never really found interest in working in retail or working for someone else in general. I always wanted to find my own God given talents and make a living off the proficiencies that God had blessed me with prior to my birth.

“All men are created equal but every man’s unique purpose in life allows him to be different then the man next to him. A man was created with a purpose in mind, for this mans purpose alone he can’t find.” 21

It wasn’t long after hearing a few tracks from these, what I consider pioneers in the game, that I found out I also possessed the gift to hear an old school track and be able to rearrange the whole track in my head before I could add my own percussions behind the foundation. What, at the time was a hobby ended up becoming a passion, and what was once a passion ended up becoming a dream that I am now determined to pursue. When I first started making tracks a lot of folks didn’t really believe that I would qualify to become one of the next hottest producers of my era and often times said the dream I had wasn’t a realistic lifestyle to pursue. Doubt from those who I considered friends at the time often discouraged me but I didn’t allow someone else who didn’t have any goals or ambition to be the one to spoil the dream that I had. Instead of taking criticism the wrong way it only motivated me to work harder at my craft so that one day no one would doubt me and the only thing I would hear from those who didn’t believe me would be, “You not signed to a label yet? Dude let me get on one of your tracks.”

I have come a long way since the days of harsh critique with the help of close friends, family and above all God. I am still on a journey to making a name for myself and discovering all of the talents that God has placed in me. Right now my main objective is promotion and networking so that not only my friends know about me but everyone knows that just because the DMV area hasn’t really brought out to many talented folks in the music industry doesn’t mean that they do not exist. In my opinion there are a lot of HOTT producers and artists in the DMV area but we are often over looked and don’t really have enough support to gain the proper recognition to be put on with the right people who can make a change and get us discovered. We can’t blame others for why we don’t see movement in our lives or area because all it takes is one brave soul to step out of his comfort zone in order for many to follow the path he walks. I give all my thanks and glory to my Father in Heaven because if it wasn’t for the trials I endured in my life I would not have a testimony nor success level to advocate to.

The trials and struggles that I’ve endured have only been a blessing for me. I know that at the time of dealing with hard times it would seem hard to consider bad times a blessing but I realize that had it not been for struggling to barely make ends meet that new windows of opportunities in my life would not have been presented and if it had I would not have been prepared to accept.

“He lived through the trials and overcame the worry. For, he knew it was a test so he’s giving God the glory.” 21

Through the pain I’ve endured I’ve been able to build a relationship with God and been able to develop water walking faith. I am not yet where I want to be in my musical career as of yet, but I know that as long as I walk in the shadow of my Father in Heaven that all the desires of my heart, my dreams, prosperity and success will come when the time is right. It is Gods promise to those who remain diligent in pursuit of there dreams and obedient to his decree.

“For, we know that tomorrow isn’t promised today but we must toil hard today to reap the benefits of the promise tomorrow.” Through God all things are possible and the promise that man can’t deliver to his fellow brethren God will deliver to his child." 21

As I look back at what I was to what I’ve become and where I am headed in my life I’ve learned that the main reason I have not been happy about my lifestyle was because I was so focused on living up to the image of what the world wanted me to be rather then what God had created me to become. It took understanding and wisdom through the spirit of man that allowed me to acknowledge that a man’s blessing isn’t gained from his own toils but because God was there to assist that man in his efforts. We must all learn to glorify God in the good times as well as the bad times because He deserves to be acknowledged at all times. If we gain all of the hearts desires but remain unhappy can our riches buy emotional satisfaction? Happiness and any emotional comfort that one seeks comes from our Father in Heaven that is why we pray when we need understanding or need spiritual comfort when things aren’t going the way we anticipated. Only our Father in Heaven can provide each one of us with the proper guidance so that we will know the “whys” to our questions about life and learn how to overcome our struggles. Don’t come to God only in times of distress because the same way you ignore a homeless man when he asks you for change just because he doesn’t have anything to give to you in return for you providing him in his times of needs will be the same when you need something from God. Unlike humans God will always deliver and answer your prayers but it won’t be on your time. God is merciful and sovereign and when he makes a promise it is good as done.

You must understand that the reason you feel how you do right now and are never completely satisfied with your decisions in life is because you have no proper guidance. You are relying on your own morals and belief in what another man can do for you then what God has promised you. By thinking that a man who breathes the same air as you can allow you to gain the desires of your heart only hinders the blessings that God has in store for you. Don’t put your faith in a man who will see death and be judged just as you will when you are no longer living. Learn to live the way God intends all of us to live and that is through the image of man who lives a Christ like life. Do, what you know is right and learn to resist temptation and falling captive to sin. Even though we were born into sin does not make us a product of sin. We learn to leave perpetual habits behind only when we allow God to enter into our lives. Allow God to fill you with the Holy Spirit so that you can become attuned to what God is trying to say to you so that you can develop a sense of direction of where you are headed so that you don’t end up in dead end jobs and feel as if you are just wasting your lives away.

Remember God created the Heavens and the earth and all the creatures before it so He knows the beginning and the end of times and how you will be living in between those times. Don’t let the obscurities of the world be the reason you end up wasting your time in pursuing what it is you love to do and to have lived for nothing when your time is up. Be the trend setter of your time and be a role model in someone else’s life. The worst feeling in the world is living with regret of not pursuing your dream in fear that you may not make it when all you had to do was try.

“If you fail to try then you prepare to fail. A man who is hungry doesn’t wait for food to be delivered to his door he goes out and get it.” 21

Our dreams may be larger then others and more creative but no matter how big or little or average your dream is why not prepare and do your due diligent in allowing you to live what only your heart desires. Don’t allow your current situation or financial statuses prevent you from living the life that you dream of having. You only live one life and it’s up to you whether you live a dream you never thought would become reality or live a mediocre lifestyle dreaming of how you would want to live. Understand that just because we don’t see the sun during the storm doesn’t mean it isn’t there behind the clouds. We must learn to let go of our problems and allow God to rejuvenate our spirits, cleanse us from our ungodly ways so that we all can enjoy the fruit of our harvest today, tomorrow.

"The trials and struggles that a man endures in his lifetime is only a test. For, he understands that his Father in Heaven is preparing him to receive Gods best."21

Monday, December 29, 2008

"In Pursuit"

“A man pursued a dream one day that was a desire of his heart. Without God and proper guidance in his life he didn’t know where to start. He had to leave his comfort circle you see to follow his Father in Heaven. Through his faith he will make it far in his life taught in Hebrews chapter 11.” 21

The dreams we have are never too large to pursue and we should never neglect our God given talents just because we lack in our faith that God will make a way for each one of us to live a better life some day. We should all rest assure that if you have God leading the way that we will arrive to our destination on time, no delays and no curse. For, if we seek Him whole heartedly we will have proper guidance and will reap fruitful benefits from our harvest. Everything gained in our lives will be a blessing under one God but everything gained under the sun will become a curse, this to is meaningless. Nothing is impossible for God and all things that are impossible for man alone to achieve will be possible only by Gods will for our lives. Each one of us has a purpose that we must pursue in our life. Find your purpose and pursue the dream that you were given. Nothing or no one is stopping you but yourself. You become your own enemy when you hold your dream captive from being pursued. If you don’t believe what I speak of then observe my own life’s experience of where I came from to where I am now to where I will be. For, I have sought and found that a mans struggle in life is like walking through quicksand to get to his destination but when God is there by your side he lifts you up and places you on solid ground. My success has not yet come but will soon arrive and when it has you can’t say I didn’t tell you so. God is good all the time and we must learn to give him the glory and thank Him in all that we have and will gain. Learn to let go and let God and allow the dream to become reality.


"For, what a man will lose for his toils in pursuit of his dream hinders the blessing that he will gain. For, what will be lost is more important to he who lacks understanding that what will be gained is far greater then that of what he already had. Gods promise is as good as the reason of your existence. For man was not created without a purpose in mind, for this mans purpose alone he can't find. Seek Him who created you to find out what it is you are called to do while you still breathe life. Don't procrastinate, initiate and you to will gain a fruitful harvest in all that you do."21

Inspired By:

As an up and coming producer I have many influences but few really grasp my undivided attention. The few that I look up to definately possess the neccessary qualifications to take music production to another level by using there God given proficiencies to make "HITS". Here are just a few of the guys who are successful in the industry that I study under.


The AlchemistRyan Leslie


Kanye West and Pharrell











The game doesn't change only the player playing the game. The rules of the game shall remain the same but only one can take it to the next level so that many can follow the movement of his passion for his craft. He is Legend. 21

Sunday, December 28, 2008

The Introduction

Whats going on everyone. I am an aspiring producer from the DMV area looking to build a name for myself through online promotion and networking. If you are looking for beats send me an email at nvmenot_16@yahoo.com and I'll be sure to reply. Stay posted and check out my Imeem website for more beats. http://www.imeem.com/cosito21 as well as myspace.com/cosi21.

A man was given a vision and a gift from God. To live in the image of christ and to become christ like so that he could see the unseen and be able to pursue his dream. He was created to change the game he played and to spread the message provided to his spirit from His Father in Heaven. It is through the gift and wisdom given from his creator, his Father in Heaven, that all things he alone can't do will be accomplished. The struggle has begun and through the trials he endures will turn them into testimonies. For, if we do not endure struggles then there is no progress in ones life. A star is born and so long as he remains obedient to the commands given unto him from his Father in Heaven shall gain the desires of his heart. In Jesus Name.

Amen.

"A vision was given but a dream it remained. Without faith theres no hope of Gods promise to be gained. All we do is talk and give lip-service but have little understanding, that without God in our lives there will be few men left standing. For, the dream that we speak of is easier said then done, but God can turn our lives around and give us a second chance to be number one!" 21.


Through God all things are possible. Keep God number one and family second.